Waiting

The trap of waiting exists as various kinds.

Waiting for the perfect partner or even a partner at all...

Waiting for a better job, a better salary…to ultimately being able to wait for a better apartment or even the moment to own a house.

Waiting for a few pounds to drop until you go out or to the gym or to your favorite dance class because you don't want to be looking like you do now and you don't want people to see you.

Waiting for better weather.

Waiting for the weekend.

Waiting for the permission or refusal of somebody else.

Waiting for a specific time in life when you yourself thought it would be right to do xyz.

To become a mother, a father. To move abroad. To shave your beard. To cut your hair.

Waiting for summer to cook jam and for winter to lay down and read.

Waiting forever. Waiting always.

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It's small and grand things all in one.

And all of them have the same root.

We wait because we want to be somewhere else.

We want to be saved from the current state and form. The current state and form of us, of life.

We still cannot fully accept us. Life. As it is.

And cherish it.

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It has to do with letting go of ideas. Ideas of the ‘I’, ideas of life and security. We are afraid.

Because our ego thinks it's safe when we do as we planned and when we do as things should be like.

Safety doesn't exist ever. At all.

And the ‘I’ is simply constructed by our mind.

It therefore doesn't really exist either.

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It has to do with love. Unconditional love. For being. Being alive. And being brave enough to thrive in the now no matter how lacking it might be.

Because how dare you to enjoy the now. And not strive for more. Not strive for better, for upgrades and perfection….

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Please dare.

Dare to do so. Exactly this.

Dare to accept where you are and let go of any idea of becoming.

Give yourself permission to do things now and also experience that maybe some of them weren't meant to be.

Accept the primarily harsh truth that no one will come to safe you. No one and nothing. It won't be harsh after some time anymore.

Maybe there will never be another job. Because the one you have is good. It's providing. It's where you landed. It's where you're supposed the be right now. And maybe forever.

Maybe there won't come a partner. Ever. Because it's not in the books for you.

Maybe you won't be able to finance a home of your own in this economy ever.

Dare to see that you are still thriving and living a life so many others dream about.

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And I'll tell you an ever bigger secret.

The moment you accept this. Fully.

The moment you stop waiting, not even secretly and deeply buried in your heart, all the doors you waited in front of before will open.

Job opportunities will come, opportunities in generell. Partners will come and your person will be among them. Everything you waited for will unfold.

And you are then free to decide if you still want it.You might not.

Because when you entirely stop waiting and take life as it is and see the endless gifts that are already yours and the sheer abundance in all of it - your once called dreams don't hold power anymore.

They’re dreams which might or might not come true. And you will be okay either way.

Fulfillment and peace is always found in you. 🖤